"Never, never, never give up." --Winston Churchill
If you came through the front door in high school, that quote was the first thing you saw every morning. I really believe it's a good idea, in the broad sense. But sometimes, you have to give up on one thing, to pursue another. At least that's what I think life is telling me.
No, juries didn't go well. And now I have to make a decision.
I have been branded "that girl who just doesn't sing like we think she should." Even if I moved mountains with my bare hands in front of witnesses, it wouldn't make a difference. I love to sing and study the human voice. I think I'm better at it than anything else musically. Yes, I'm a good at theory, especially form and analysis, but that alone won't get me a theory&composition degree.
1. Do I want to keep doing this? Music yes. Voice yes, but I don't think I will ever succeed at it. No one sees past my age, and that is nothing but a hindrance.
2. What else would be an ok substitute? Teaching theory, but that requires changing schools.
3. Where can I go? Don't know - WashU is too expensive, other options have well over an hour commute.
I can't go back and I can't go forward. Are up and down options?
Don't give up, Laura. I'm certain you'll make your dreams come true, even if the road you currently trod becomes a little crooked and rocky. You can do it!