Ok, so this is why no one should ever think that when I talk about stuff, things are actually going to end up that way.
Or maybe God is trying to tell me to talk less. Take your pick.
I think I'm going back to school. For a music degree. I've already missed FAFSA deadline for fall semester, and I don't think I'm ready to audition for a recognized school next week. However, I'm going to contact St. Charles Community College and see if I can get into their transfer program.
Why am I doing this? During a band practice last week the thought came to me, "I could do this all day." It was the same way the thought "I don't want to do this" came to me in ChemE 027. Hindsight is 20-20, I should have changed schools in 1996. But then, maybe not. If I hadn't gone to Rolla for 7 years, Eric wouldn't have put me on his blog roll.....
This is the craziest idea I've had in a long time. From any sane perspective: I'm too old to start over; music is incredibly competitive, I'll be 10-15 years older than my competitors; we don't really have the funds to "waste" on school. (Dan needs to finish his masters.)
But then, maybe God wants to do something big here. Maybe even bigger than I think. What if He wants to provide me a career, without going to school? Or if I do need to go to school, He will have to provide the funds.
Maybe I should stop talking about things that aren't set it stone. Yet, it's through talking about them that I realize what is good, and what's not.
Mother always said, "Nothing is set in concrete except death and accidents."
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